You are in a relationship, and your partner goes away for awhile.
And you're lonely.
You have a relationship, and you or your partner (or both)
decide it's time to end it, and
you are lonely.
You haven't been with a partner in a long time,
or can only find partners that turn out to be contentious,
or duplicitous, or boring, or ...., and the relationships don't last long,
and you long for a Real Relationship,
and you
are
Lonely.
And in all these cases, you get a marvelous chance to discover
what it is like to love.
To love yourself as all the cliche´s say.
That really isn't it, but we might as well get this one out of the way.
Most lonely people, and this isn't going to sound right,
but
oh, well,
are lonely at least in part because they are selfish.
In a way they "love themselves" too much, in the sense
that they,
like you and me and everyone,
fall prey to the me, me, me disease,
and want things to go their way.
And when things don't go their way,
they cause a stink, and the partner gets sick of them
and leaves,
or they are so precious that they have to leave the partner
because they didn't get their way.
This sounds harsh,
but think of it
as oh, so human.
The human condition:
we imagine that other people have a purpose in the universe
and that purpose
is to help us feel good or comfortable or happy or safe
or...
what WE want to feel.
And sometimes, darn them,
they just forget what they are "supposed" to be doing
and actually think that THEY are the center of the Universe.
You can see how this might cause problems.
If it weren't for sex and children, and fear of loneliness,
relationships could probably never last more than a couple
of weeks.
And now we are back to loneliness again.
Do you get lonely walking in the woods,
or in a beautiful meadow?
Usually not. We feel at one with Nature,
and we aren't demanding that the wildflowers
like us more or appreciate us more or lose weight.
We can love Nature for what it is.
This is the kind of self love we need, too.
Are we sad?
Love the sadness.
Are we afraid we will never find a partner?
Love the fear.
Are we bored?
Love the boredom.
Do we wish we could make less mistakes?
Love the learning of HOW we went about making the mistakes,
why we went about making the mistakes, and even ( or maybe especially),
how the mistakes were lessons for us.
So we are alone.
Time to think,
and watch our thinking.
Do we think kind thoughts about ourselves?
Not boastful thoughts, though that isn't the biggest crime in the world,
but kind as in: you are a good person. You are able to learn. You have these interests.
You are learning this and that and that. This is what you enjoy: how about spending more time doing the things you enjoy. This job doesn't really make you happy, how about looking for another one, or thinking about what you really want to do.
If we have unkind thoughts, this is were the fear of loneliness comes in.
Being alone is fine, but if we use the time beating ourselves up inside,
then life gets grueling.
And one thing we can beat ourselves up about is the idea:
I should have a partner right now.
I won't go into the Work of Byron Katie just now.
It's easy to find: thework.com
And if you google my blogs and the work of byron katie you'll find
plenty of essays.
Or buy my book, which lays it out over many smaller chapters.
Or buy Katie's book.
But for now:
this is a gift we can all give ourselves in any lonely moment:
to take the thought that "I'm not okay just here, by myself"
and ask:
Is it true?
If you have a partner and they are off doing something they enjoy
or want
or need
to do, doesn't love recommend loving their doing that,
and self love recommend you enjoy the time free.
Same when loved ones and you have parted ways.
You are spared the troubled times.
You have time to meditate and practice loving
every moment of every day.
When you get even halfway good at that,
so many people will want to be in your company you'll be shocked
and pleased,
and have to use astute heart and mind intelligence to find with whom
you will have the most wonderful time together.
Hint: find someone who is not afraid to be alone.
They won't cling to you.
And since, if you know how to at least halfway love everything
you do,
in partnership or alone,
you won't be afraid to be alone.
And so when you are together,
it can be love time,
not hiding from fear of loneliness time.
That seems like an improvement,
don't you think?
And you're lonely.
You have a relationship, and you or your partner (or both)
decide it's time to end it, and
you are lonely.
You haven't been with a partner in a long time,
or can only find partners that turn out to be contentious,
or duplicitous, or boring, or ...., and the relationships don't last long,
and you long for a Real Relationship,
and you
are
Lonely.
And in all these cases, you get a marvelous chance to discover
what it is like to love.
To love yourself as all the cliche´s say.
That really isn't it, but we might as well get this one out of the way.
Most lonely people, and this isn't going to sound right,
but
oh, well,
are lonely at least in part because they are selfish.
In a way they "love themselves" too much, in the sense
that they,
like you and me and everyone,
fall prey to the me, me, me disease,
and want things to go their way.
And when things don't go their way,
they cause a stink, and the partner gets sick of them
and leaves,
or they are so precious that they have to leave the partner
because they didn't get their way.
This sounds harsh,
but think of it
as oh, so human.
The human condition:
we imagine that other people have a purpose in the universe
and that purpose
is to help us feel good or comfortable or happy or safe
or...
what WE want to feel.
And sometimes, darn them,
they just forget what they are "supposed" to be doing
and actually think that THEY are the center of the Universe.
You can see how this might cause problems.
If it weren't for sex and children, and fear of loneliness,
relationships could probably never last more than a couple
of weeks.
And now we are back to loneliness again.
Do you get lonely walking in the woods,
or in a beautiful meadow?
Usually not. We feel at one with Nature,
and we aren't demanding that the wildflowers
like us more or appreciate us more or lose weight.
We can love Nature for what it is.
This is the kind of self love we need, too.
Are we sad?
Love the sadness.
Are we afraid we will never find a partner?
Love the fear.
Are we bored?
Love the boredom.
Do we wish we could make less mistakes?
Love the learning of HOW we went about making the mistakes,
why we went about making the mistakes, and even ( or maybe especially),
how the mistakes were lessons for us.
So we are alone.
Time to think,
and watch our thinking.
Do we think kind thoughts about ourselves?
Not boastful thoughts, though that isn't the biggest crime in the world,
but kind as in: you are a good person. You are able to learn. You have these interests.
You are learning this and that and that. This is what you enjoy: how about spending more time doing the things you enjoy. This job doesn't really make you happy, how about looking for another one, or thinking about what you really want to do.
If we have unkind thoughts, this is were the fear of loneliness comes in.
Being alone is fine, but if we use the time beating ourselves up inside,
then life gets grueling.
And one thing we can beat ourselves up about is the idea:
I should have a partner right now.
I won't go into the Work of Byron Katie just now.
It's easy to find: thework.com
And if you google my blogs and the work of byron katie you'll find
plenty of essays.
Or buy my book, which lays it out over many smaller chapters.
Or buy Katie's book.
But for now:
this is a gift we can all give ourselves in any lonely moment:
to take the thought that "I'm not okay just here, by myself"
and ask:
Is it true?
If you have a partner and they are off doing something they enjoy
or want
or need
to do, doesn't love recommend loving their doing that,
and self love recommend you enjoy the time free.
Same when loved ones and you have parted ways.
You are spared the troubled times.
You have time to meditate and practice loving
every moment of every day.
When you get even halfway good at that,
so many people will want to be in your company you'll be shocked
and pleased,
and have to use astute heart and mind intelligence to find with whom
you will have the most wonderful time together.
Hint: find someone who is not afraid to be alone.
They won't cling to you.
And since, if you know how to at least halfway love everything
you do,
in partnership or alone,
you won't be afraid to be alone.
And so when you are together,
it can be love time,
not hiding from fear of loneliness time.
That seems like an improvement,
don't you think?
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