In relationship, we get these feelings.
You know the ones: anger, fear, frustration, neediness, jealousy, worry, sad, lonely, overwhelmed, underwhelmed, confused.
A grand thing to do with those and any feelings in the work of Byron Katie, and that will be the last seven days of our 21 day program. Her work is all of therapy wrapped up in a simplicity and elegance that not only "heals" the various emotional wounds we are carrying around, but can carry us to the enlightened state if we just keep asking: "Is it true?" and "Who are I without the story?"
But for now, today,, let's play with understanding our loss when we leave the present.
You can do this with your partner.
You can do this alone.
Give yourself some time, and allow yourself to "go to" the feeling that is most disturbing you right now.
Say aloud that feeling in it's shortest form:
"I feel angry."
"I feel sad."
"I feel afraid."
Skip the "I am..." form. Why? Because who you are is vast, so much more vast than any mere feeling, or thought, or set of words, or concepts.
So, just say the feeling without/ WITHOUT any of the becauses.
(You know; "I feel angry because you never come home when you say you will." No, stay small, stay direct, stay with yourself: "I feel angry.")
2. Whether alone or with your partner, fill in the "because" part of the feeling, but make it spoken in gibberish.
"I feel angry because ......XVXVXV KDKDKD LILIYGBN." Make up sounds and convey the feeling of your big bad sad angry hurt victim story about how much they are "doing it wrong."
But don't actually say the words.
This gets you a step away from taking it so seriously, or maybe several steps.
If you are in front of your partner, it spares them all the blame about why you imagine you are feeling as you are feeling.
3. Pause. Breathe. Look at your partner. Smile.
Feel your breathing.
Watch their breathing.
Say aloud: "I am alive and breathing." Pause and notice your breathing. As you do so watch their breathing at the same time.
Say aloud: "You are alive and breathing." Pause and notice both your breathing.
Notice them in the light.
Say one or two things you notice in the present from the information light is bringing into your eyes.
"I see you looking at me." "Your shirt is blue."
No, no, no interpretations.
4. Go back to the feeling.
Explore when in the past you felt that way.
Talk about when in the past you felt that way.
5. As you talk about the past, which isn't in the present,
notice,
in the present,
IN THE PRESENT NOTICE,
your sensations in your body. Your chest. Your skin. Your neck. Your eyes. Your legs and arms and spine.
Some might feel tense, usually around the torso area. Some areas might be just fine, say your feet and ankles.
Report the physical sensations that go along with talking about and exploring this feeling and it's roots in the past.
6. Pause and go back to #3. Notice what being alive in the present is about.
Go through the breathing and saying the truths of that section.
7. Keep looking at your partner ( if alone, imagine whomever you are having the feeling about).
Switch between them in the present,
them in some past where they were triggering the feeling,
and
the past persons who triggered this feeling first.
Go back and forth.
Notice how calm the present can be.
Notice the agitation of going back to the "story" of their "crime."
Notice the difference between your partner ( or annoyance person, for this can be an X, with whom you need closure) and the person from your more distant past.
Notice the three possibilities:
the way past woundedness ( and how does that feel in your body)
the slightly past woundedness, when you go into the story about your partner or whomever
the present.
8. Come back to awareness of yourself in the present.
Say aloud, sensing yourself and noticing your breathing and theirs:
"I am alive. You are alive. I am breathing. You are breathing.
I am going to die.
You are going to die."
Have some quiet time, to walk, or rest, and then repeat the process the other way around if you have both people in the same room.
Give yourself lots of time.
Do not explain the gibberish, even if they know.
Do not "defend" yourself against the gibberish, even if it's obvious what it is.
Do not "help" the other with their past feelings. Especially do not go into: I told you so, you weren't really angry at me, I knew all along it was your father.
If you want to be grateful for the present, or for the other person, and to express that.
That would be a fine idea.
Good.
You know the ones: anger, fear, frustration, neediness, jealousy, worry, sad, lonely, overwhelmed, underwhelmed, confused.
A grand thing to do with those and any feelings in the work of Byron Katie, and that will be the last seven days of our 21 day program. Her work is all of therapy wrapped up in a simplicity and elegance that not only "heals" the various emotional wounds we are carrying around, but can carry us to the enlightened state if we just keep asking: "Is it true?" and "Who are I without the story?"
But for now, today,, let's play with understanding our loss when we leave the present.
You can do this with your partner.
You can do this alone.
Give yourself some time, and allow yourself to "go to" the feeling that is most disturbing you right now.
Say aloud that feeling in it's shortest form:
"I feel angry."
"I feel sad."
"I feel afraid."
Skip the "I am..." form. Why? Because who you are is vast, so much more vast than any mere feeling, or thought, or set of words, or concepts.
So, just say the feeling without/ WITHOUT any of the becauses.
(You know; "I feel angry because you never come home when you say you will." No, stay small, stay direct, stay with yourself: "I feel angry.")
2. Whether alone or with your partner, fill in the "because" part of the feeling, but make it spoken in gibberish.
"I feel angry because ......XVXVXV KDKDKD LILIYGBN." Make up sounds and convey the feeling of your big bad sad angry hurt victim story about how much they are "doing it wrong."
But don't actually say the words.
This gets you a step away from taking it so seriously, or maybe several steps.
If you are in front of your partner, it spares them all the blame about why you imagine you are feeling as you are feeling.
3. Pause. Breathe. Look at your partner. Smile.
Feel your breathing.
Watch their breathing.
Say aloud: "I am alive and breathing." Pause and notice your breathing. As you do so watch their breathing at the same time.
Say aloud: "You are alive and breathing." Pause and notice both your breathing.
Notice them in the light.
Say one or two things you notice in the present from the information light is bringing into your eyes.
"I see you looking at me." "Your shirt is blue."
No, no, no interpretations.
4. Go back to the feeling.
Explore when in the past you felt that way.
Talk about when in the past you felt that way.
5. As you talk about the past, which isn't in the present,
notice,
in the present,
IN THE PRESENT NOTICE,
your sensations in your body. Your chest. Your skin. Your neck. Your eyes. Your legs and arms and spine.
Some might feel tense, usually around the torso area. Some areas might be just fine, say your feet and ankles.
Report the physical sensations that go along with talking about and exploring this feeling and it's roots in the past.
6. Pause and go back to #3. Notice what being alive in the present is about.
Go through the breathing and saying the truths of that section.
7. Keep looking at your partner ( if alone, imagine whomever you are having the feeling about).
Switch between them in the present,
them in some past where they were triggering the feeling,
and
the past persons who triggered this feeling first.
Go back and forth.
Notice how calm the present can be.
Notice the agitation of going back to the "story" of their "crime."
Notice the difference between your partner ( or annoyance person, for this can be an X, with whom you need closure) and the person from your more distant past.
Notice the three possibilities:
the way past woundedness ( and how does that feel in your body)
the slightly past woundedness, when you go into the story about your partner or whomever
the present.
8. Come back to awareness of yourself in the present.
Say aloud, sensing yourself and noticing your breathing and theirs:
"I am alive. You are alive. I am breathing. You are breathing.
I am going to die.
You are going to die."
Have some quiet time, to walk, or rest, and then repeat the process the other way around if you have both people in the same room.
Give yourself lots of time.
Do not explain the gibberish, even if they know.
Do not "defend" yourself against the gibberish, even if it's obvious what it is.
Do not "help" the other with their past feelings. Especially do not go into: I told you so, you weren't really angry at me, I knew all along it was your father.
If you want to be grateful for the present, or for the other person, and to express that.
That would be a fine idea.
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